What wisdom

This is something that Phyllis said the last time we were there and I loved it right away, just that I forgot right away too. There is a kind of "new age guilt trip" when we look at our lives and all that we have co-created and go, ok, there must be some lesson in this for me. I keep attracting crappy jobs/men/women/situations and I know I must need to get something from it...
Instead of telling ourselves that we need to learn something, let's ask ourselves, What wisdom is there in this job/man/woman/situation for me?
Let us remember to be gentle with ourselves.

Phyllis

Amy and I went to see Phyllis again and here are some things I don't want to forget:

She was wonderful as usual. Amy and I get something from both of our sessions.
Things I want to remember in particular...What wisdom is there in this? Instead of saying I must need to learn some lesson.
Daddy is going over to the other side when he sleeps. Trying it on for size. Failure to thrive is a statement he is making. He wants to see me.
Don't try to rescue him, my gift is myself. He did the best that he could.
Your soul added to our session and said that you like it when I am calm and at ease. Hee hee. I think I knew that. Amy and I were talking in the car and I don't think it is always like that, like my mother being more comfortable with anger than sadness.
She said also to Amy about Steve that even though our partners are not always in the same place on a growth cycle that is ok. Same for us.
Also about us, that I need to trust me more. Set my intention for our relationship every day until I realize that I can trust myself.
More stuff about being worthy.
For my practice, be open to a wider population; make my office space feel more Mine. Bless my payments for the space.
More acupuncture - I have done some good work so far but need one or two more sessions. Take naps.

Picture from the marathon

I just had to include this, it just came in online so it isn't very high resolution, but I like it anyway.

Weekend, World of Warcraft

Well, the weekend went well. Eric got Beng and I to watch the season's premier of South Park (although I don't think either of us knew it was the season premier) which was called something like, South Park saves the World of Warcraft. For those of you who don't know, Eric has been playing WoW for a long time now, and is pretty much addicted. At any rate, he then proceeded to explain details of the game to us and yes, Beng created his own character, ShadowSwede and completed his first quest. I played a few minutes too. We have been toying with the idea of playing with Eric, forming our own little group, as it were. It might be fun. I am not a big fan of killing things, so I imagine my character will not "level" too quickly, but I like the quest stuff, finding things and all that. Maybe I will just tell myself I am "defeating" them, that they are just "Inevitable Consequence of Progress" ala Johnny Clegg. Or maybe I won't play at all. It is amazing how much more time we spent together, though, as a result of this game.
There was a minor meltdown when Eric realized I was loading the game on my computer so that I could play and not so that he could. Ah, well, he is figuring things out.
No news from Laura in some time now.

Choir recording

So, the Twin Cities Women's Choir did a recording this summer, I participated in the first session, then I was either in Peru or Augusta when they did the second one. This is a photo of another singer and Chopper, the production guy. I am sure there is a more formal title, but that will have to suffice for now. It was a lot of fun. Now we are working on getting the CD cover and insert done, then actually, physcially produced. When they are ready, I will let you know!

Not closing yet

Ok, so I obviously decided to hold off ending this blog. I decided I would focus on this and the Coon Rapids Garden one and pretty much leave all the others alone. Not that I have many, or anything, just livejournal and myspace, but I rarely update either of those these days. I am interested in starting a website for my practice, too. I am not sure if I ought to do that on my own or just pay someone else to manage it. I am no wiz at websites and I get overwhelmed thinking of what it would take to manage one. Mostly I just want it to say what I specialize in and let people know about price and location, maybe include some useful links. I don't want it to be something I have to work on every day or anything like that.
I am interested in changing my Psychology Today advertisement, but I am not clear yet on what I want it to say. I want to say something about assisting people with lifeforce issues, but how to say that without sounding too far from the edge? Or maybe I don't need to worry about that?
My book idea pretty much flopped.
Beng and I are on our way to Georgia in a couple of weeks. We are going to drive down. I have plenty of books on the iPod to keep us entertained. I don't think it will be a bad drive. I did it alone before, and I drove from Denver to Georgia, too. I don't mind driving. I like to take food with me and stop for gas as necessary. We'll see, I guess.

Grass clippings

I did my part, too, even though you mostly don't see me. I am usually the one taking the pictures.

Eric getting involoved

Yeah, he isn't much interested in manual labor, per se, but he liked this part.

Lasagna bed

It was so windy, we found we needed to keep things pretty wet in order to keep it all from flying away. Eric was in charge of the hose. Beng kept things nice and smoothly spread out, working just ahead of Eric to keep from getting sprayed.

First bed

Well, we started the first bed yesterday (Saturday the 7th). Beng, Eric and I built layers from leaves (donated by Dave and by Amy, who used to live here), peat moss and grass clippings. This is pretty early on.

Food waste composting

Ok, so a little part of my community (Beng, Eric and I) got together yesterday to start our food waste compost bin. This doesn't make a lot of compost, just keeps the food waste out of the trash and dump and gives it back to the ground. We took an old trash can, drilled holes in it (bottom and the bottom third around the sides) and then buried it part way in the ground. I will let you know how it works out. We found the directions online, but none of the people who talked about having it and lovin