Forgot to tell about Mary. She called Tuesday before I saw my client and "picked my brain" about group home stuff. She told me she is still thinking of using her home as a group home and wondered if I would like to come and run it. I told her (after much discussion) that if I wasn't able to run it, I would be willing to help her get it set up. Really, once the thing is up and running it runs itself, in my experience.
It was kind of cool to feel like an expert at something again.
Friday, May 13, 2005
Thursday, May 12, 2005
More shopping
I went shopping again! if you can believe it, because I wanted to go to Sam's. I got stuff for smores and more chips (who is going to eat all this, Martha?) and also some chicken wings. I know, I know, that isn't vegetarian but I like wings, and I really want to try them out on the grill! Eric and I will be experimenting with sauces...
Then went down and Beng, Eric and I went to Burrito Loco (yummy) and then to see Kung Fu Hustle. It was clever. I liked it, considering it is a fighting and kicking kind of movie.
Laura called for a ride but we didn't answer so she called her mom...oops. Beng got there at the same time as Celeste. Oh well. The joys of distance parenting, I guess.
I chatted with Laura a while after she got home, despite Beng's not-so-subtle hints about getting some sleep. I know what it is like to get home after doing something and needing to come down some before you head off to bed, so I figured even if she went straight to bed she wouldn't be sleeping...
Beng and I talked wedding plans after the kids were both in bed...that was exciting too! Ahhhh. Life is good.
Then went down and Beng, Eric and I went to Burrito Loco (yummy) and then to see Kung Fu Hustle. It was clever. I liked it, considering it is a fighting and kicking kind of movie.
Laura called for a ride but we didn't answer so she called her mom...oops. Beng got there at the same time as Celeste. Oh well. The joys of distance parenting, I guess.
I chatted with Laura a while after she got home, despite Beng's not-so-subtle hints about getting some sleep. I know what it is like to get home after doing something and needing to come down some before you head off to bed, so I figured even if she went straight to bed she wouldn't be sleeping...
Beng and I talked wedding plans after the kids were both in bed...that was exciting too! Ahhhh. Life is good.
Interesting coincidences
Went to sleep kinda late so slept in some (till 10). Detta and I surprised Amy when we came down...hee hee.
I got a call from Aunt Sharon this morning - kind of surprised me. She is concerned (as ever) about her niece and she talked to me for quite a while. It seems someone finally called 911 after she threw a fit and she ended up at Regions. What has happened since then is outrageous and I think Aunt Sharon is right to be upset. I would be too. In fact, I am. But there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. So far. I did page Curt and let him know that Aunt Sharon called, and that what she was reporting about Jo did not sound good. Just writing about it makes me feel upset again. And, I find myself in the position of expert again. What does it mean? I was just discussing these same things with Mary on Tuesday.
Anyway, then I looked up Fraser on line and they had a postion open for lead therapist at the preschool mental health area!!! Yay. I sent an email resume immediately and contacted the choir member too, asking if I could use her name (she said yes). I didn't get anything back from Fraser but I can be patient (which one is a person who is going to see a doctor and which one means able to wait, I can never remember). Very exciting!
I got a call from Aunt Sharon this morning - kind of surprised me. She is concerned (as ever) about her niece and she talked to me for quite a while. It seems someone finally called 911 after she threw a fit and she ended up at Regions. What has happened since then is outrageous and I think Aunt Sharon is right to be upset. I would be too. In fact, I am. But there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. So far. I did page Curt and let him know that Aunt Sharon called, and that what she was reporting about Jo did not sound good. Just writing about it makes me feel upset again. And, I find myself in the position of expert again. What does it mean? I was just discussing these same things with Mary on Tuesday.
Anyway, then I looked up Fraser on line and they had a postion open for lead therapist at the preschool mental health area!!! Yay. I sent an email resume immediately and contacted the choir member too, asking if I could use her name (she said yes). I didn't get anything back from Fraser but I can be patient (which one is a person who is going to see a doctor and which one means able to wait, I can never remember). Very exciting!
Some Quotes
That I came across recently...
"So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains,
and we never even know we have the key."
--The Eagles
"We must be ever thankful for small miracles, and ever hopeful
for receiving greater ones."
-Elmer Shultz
"Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both
together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is
the soul of genius."
~ Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Wed night choir
So, went shopping for the big birthday party...I got enough goodies for 5 parties. I got kind of carried away, I guess. It was fun, though.
Then I went down to choir (dropped off the dog first and chatted a bit with the kids). We had a folding party, just like Beng does at the Men's Center. Except this was kind of disorganized. I don't know if they did that before or if they put out only a few so they have to figure it out every time. I know I am kind of anal about the whole "let's do this efficiently" thing...but still. Anyway, it went fine, they don't have that many so it was ok in the end.
While we were folding and stuffing I was talking (well, they were talking and I just jumped in) about therapy stuff and it turns out that one of the womyn is a therapist and I was telling her about the big job hunt and Nystrom (she raised an eyebrow) and she suggested I call Fraser - that they have a preschool mental health unit and it is a rule 29 place.
Beng and I talked and did a crossword till nearly midnight then I came home.
Then I went down to choir (dropped off the dog first and chatted a bit with the kids). We had a folding party, just like Beng does at the Men's Center. Except this was kind of disorganized. I don't know if they did that before or if they put out only a few so they have to figure it out every time. I know I am kind of anal about the whole "let's do this efficiently" thing...but still. Anyway, it went fine, they don't have that many so it was ok in the end.
While we were folding and stuffing I was talking (well, they were talking and I just jumped in) about therapy stuff and it turns out that one of the womyn is a therapist and I was telling her about the big job hunt and Nystrom (she raised an eyebrow) and she suggested I call Fraser - that they have a preschool mental health unit and it is a rule 29 place.
Beng and I talked and did a crossword till nearly midnight then I came home.
Interview
Hey, so just got back from the interview. I think it went really well! I am excited about getting to work there. Gina said that the "christian" part is more about how they interact in the office and how the business is run than about the clients, most of the clients they see don't know anything about the christian counselors part. I was very straightforward about my own beliefs not being very conservative on that front and about the fact that I believe that what people believe is very important. We talked about groups and she recognized the Love and Logic stuff.
I think it went well.
I talked to Beng right afterwards, he was holding in some skeptiscism because of some experience he had with another agency, but he thinks it sounded good too. Yay.
Then I was looking at email and guess who wrote me? Yeah, Lloyd....hmmmm.
Ok, I gotta eat so I can get a work out in before choir...
I think it went well.
I talked to Beng right afterwards, he was holding in some skeptiscism because of some experience he had with another agency, but he thinks it sounded good too. Yay.
Then I was looking at email and guess who wrote me? Yeah, Lloyd....hmmmm.
Ok, I gotta eat so I can get a work out in before choir...
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Yeah, very nice, very professional
Ok, so I emailed People Inc, still no response. Ok. Very nice. Went running with Beng and Detta at the dog park last night, was great. I got 1.5 in at home during the day and another 3 at the dog park. And I ran into a womyn from TCWC and it was cool. Don't remember her name, but I do remember the name of the dog...smile...Toby.
Then we went to Italian night, that was ok. I found out why Pablo always evades me about his kids...it is a painful topic. Ooops.
Then we went to Ihop and had omlettes.
Then we went to Italian night, that was ok. I found out why Pablo always evades me about his kids...it is a painful topic. Ooops.
Then we went to Ihop and had omlettes.
here goes
Ok, here goes, I am going to make the dreaded call now. I do not know why this is so hard for me. Maybe, Martha, because you don't really want this job? Maybe because you are waiting for the Nystrom thing to work out? Maybe I will wait.
Oh, I know, I will email them. That seems much less scary. Now where is that card?
I am going to attempt to run afterwards. Ok. Here goes.
Oh, I know, I will email them. That seems much less scary. Now where is that card?
I am going to attempt to run afterwards. Ok. Here goes.
Waited for a call
All day but I never did get one. I don't know if that means the job is not available or what. Sheesh. I hate to call back, so I am waiting till tomorrow.
I really did feel lazy all day today. I just could not get it together to really do anything. I did send a gift to a friend, but that was really all I accomplished. I was going to run but hip and chest pain stopped me. Instead I did an upper body work out. Felt good.
Amy came home unexpectedly (I thought she was working her 2nd job - but not until Wed) and we talked in the kitchen and watched Judging Amy, including the season finale. Bre got in as it was ending. It was a good ending, very emotional.
Bre and I came upstairs with popcorn and watched a Jonathon Winters special. He is so good. I didn't remember that most of what he did was improv.
Whew it was humid! ml
I really did feel lazy all day today. I just could not get it together to really do anything. I did send a gift to a friend, but that was really all I accomplished. I was going to run but hip and chest pain stopped me. Instead I did an upper body work out. Felt good.
Amy came home unexpectedly (I thought she was working her 2nd job - but not until Wed) and we talked in the kitchen and watched Judging Amy, including the season finale. Bre got in as it was ending. It was a good ending, very emotional.
Bre and I came upstairs with popcorn and watched a Jonathon Winters special. He is so good. I didn't remember that most of what he did was improv.
Whew it was humid! ml
Mother's day
We got up slowly again, that is so nice. Bre went out and got the paper. He attempted to finish cutting the grass. I thought he was doing that so spent some time in front of the computer - sent some emails and such - but when I went outside it turned out he couldn't get the mower started.
I also called Mommy while he was outside. She was doing fine, had had a good day with Grace and Daddy and also the Lockards were there (at lunch). She told me a story about Beaver and Wally (yes, that Beaver and Wally) and how Wally's girlfriend wanted an orchid. I love my Mommy.
He finished putting the string in the boxes (to mark off the squares) and put up the climbing part. I got all the plants in the ground - even the sunflowers.
We put lime under the pines out front and also put out the seed for wild flowers and clover. I hope it takes. I cooked out while Bre was raking pine cones. I am still working on my veggie techniques. There were some burned green beans tonight.
Tonight we watched People I Know. Very sad. I had to watch some soap opera after to cleanse the pallette before sleeping!
I also called Mommy while he was outside. She was doing fine, had had a good day with Grace and Daddy and also the Lockards were there (at lunch). She told me a story about Beaver and Wally (yes, that Beaver and Wally) and how Wally's girlfriend wanted an orchid. I love my Mommy.
He finished putting the string in the boxes (to mark off the squares) and put up the climbing part. I got all the plants in the ground - even the sunflowers.
We put lime under the pines out front and also put out the seed for wild flowers and clover. I hope it takes. I cooked out while Bre was raking pine cones. I am still working on my veggie techniques. There were some burned green beans tonight.
Tonight we watched People I Know. Very sad. I had to watch some soap opera after to cleanse the pallette before sleeping!
Gardening
Saturday we slept in then ate breakfast late, it was very nice. Then we headed out to Home Depot for garden stuff. Bob cut the grass while I started putting the string on the boxes. Then the neighbor's daughter came over. We chatted a while. I guess Louise is "terminal" (her daughter's description). She is all done with treatments and medicine and I guess they don't think she will last much more then a few months. It is sad.
Bob took his long run while I was at the concert. Sopranos cleaned up afterward...and we were faster than the altos...smile.
We came home then went out to eat - Baker's Square seems like the only place we go anymore. Then we came home and watched Sabrina, most of it, the original. It was strange, we were up very late, like 3 am.
Bob took his long run while I was at the concert. Sopranos cleaned up afterward...and we were faster than the altos...smile.
We came home then went out to eat - Baker's Square seems like the only place we go anymore. Then we came home and watched Sabrina, most of it, the original. It was strange, we were up very late, like 3 am.
Thursday and Friday
So, dress rehearsal went well, and I decided those were not the boots to wear...lets not get carried away with fashion! Came home after stopping in at Bre's and having a long conversation...
Friday I decided to take the job with People Inc and called, but Karen was not in. I left a message.
Seems like I spent the whole day getting ready for the concert...
The concert went well, Bob and Laura and Eric were there as were Eve and Tom. There were only a few mistakes and I don't think people noticed. We passed out the desserts and I sat with Bob and the kids. I wore my Docs, the cool ones with heels...yeah, not so cool. Bruised my little foot...
Anyway it was a great night. Bob took the kids back to their mom's after then we came home together. I ate Eric's leftovers and we watched Enterprise.
ml
Friday I decided to take the job with People Inc and called, but Karen was not in. I left a message.
Seems like I spent the whole day getting ready for the concert...
The concert went well, Bob and Laura and Eric were there as were Eve and Tom. There were only a few mistakes and I don't think people noticed. We passed out the desserts and I sat with Bob and the kids. I wore my Docs, the cool ones with heels...yeah, not so cool. Bruised my little foot...
Anyway it was a great night. Bob took the kids back to their mom's after then we came home together. I ate Eric's leftovers and we watched Enterprise.
ml
Friday, May 06, 2005
Wed night
Went well, I was late, but it was ok anyway. They hadn't actually begun singing. Also I forgot my scarf thingy. Oh well.
I was thinking about the running thing...I think the reason I have gone to treadmill is that pain under the second metatarsil...running outside today was great and invigorating but man, I was definitely limping at the end.
After choir went to Bre's. We had some uncomfortable conversation - but I think we managed to come to a kind of resolve before I left. I don't like it when he doesn't ask me about my day...and that is getting to be a bigger and bigger issue, which makes sense. We have talked about it more than once and it does drive me crazy faster now than before. I know that we all have different ways of showing we care but that one is paramount for me, I like to feel that he is interested in my day, etc. But it is more than that, too. It is like my parents - yes - I know it is cliche - but it works. It is like Grace sending me Glamour shots for my birthday one year. That was a gift she wanted, not one I wanted. It is all well and good to have your way of showing someone you care, but if you don't show them in a way they understand, they wont understand!
Hmmmm. I think I said it better here than there. Funny how that heat of the moment thing gets in and smears your thinking.
The thing is, I do not doubt that he loves me, that he cares, not at all. I know he does things like forcing himself to stay up late because he thinks I want him to (because I stay up late) and forcing himself to do jobs around the house instead of sitting around reading, I know those are things he thinks he does for me. The only problem is, I don't want him to do them. I am not opposed to him sleeping when he is tired or to him sitting around relaxing on weekends. I have told him that, but he has yet to really believe me, I think.
I think I will write him an email right now, while I am feeling particularly clear.
I was thinking about the running thing...I think the reason I have gone to treadmill is that pain under the second metatarsil...running outside today was great and invigorating but man, I was definitely limping at the end.
After choir went to Bre's. We had some uncomfortable conversation - but I think we managed to come to a kind of resolve before I left. I don't like it when he doesn't ask me about my day...and that is getting to be a bigger and bigger issue, which makes sense. We have talked about it more than once and it does drive me crazy faster now than before. I know that we all have different ways of showing we care but that one is paramount for me, I like to feel that he is interested in my day, etc. But it is more than that, too. It is like my parents - yes - I know it is cliche - but it works. It is like Grace sending me Glamour shots for my birthday one year. That was a gift she wanted, not one I wanted. It is all well and good to have your way of showing someone you care, but if you don't show them in a way they understand, they wont understand!
Hmmmm. I think I said it better here than there. Funny how that heat of the moment thing gets in and smears your thinking.
The thing is, I do not doubt that he loves me, that he cares, not at all. I know he does things like forcing himself to stay up late because he thinks I want him to (because I stay up late) and forcing himself to do jobs around the house instead of sitting around reading, I know those are things he thinks he does for me. The only problem is, I don't want him to do them. I am not opposed to him sleeping when he is tired or to him sitting around relaxing on weekends. I have told him that, but he has yet to really believe me, I think.
I think I will write him an email right now, while I am feeling particularly clear.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Smart chicken email and response
I wrote an email to www.smartchicken.com because there was no word on their web site about free range...
Comments:
---------------
I am wondering if your chickens are free range or if they grow, like
many industry chickens, in small cages?
Thanks,
Martha
Martha -
Thanks so much for your e-mail and your interest in our premium
air-chilled product, Smart Chicken. None of the birds raised for Smart
Chicken are ever caged or debeaked. The birds raised for Organic Smart
Chicken are "free-range" and are allowed access to the outdoors, when
USDA temperature regulations allow it. None of the birds are given
animal by-products, antibiotics, hormones or growth promotants of any
kind. MBA Poultry is the only company in the United States that has
installed a Controlled Atmosphere Stunning system in which a mixture of
carbon dioxide and oxygen renders the birds into a sleep state prior to
the sacrifice. The growers of the birds are part owners of MBA Poultry,
so they are very attuned to the welfare of the birds. We also have live
production staff that visits each farm on a weekly basis to assure that
the strict growing standards of MBA Poultry are adhered to. Thanks
again for your e-mail, Martha. Have a great weekend, and remember,
"When you think chicken ... think Smart!"
Warm regards,
Mark A. Haskins
Founder/President/CEO
MBA Poultry (Home of Smart Chicken)
Comments:
---------------
I am wondering if your chickens are free range or if they grow, like
many industry chickens, in small cages?
Thanks,
Martha
Martha -
Thanks so much for your e-mail and your interest in our premium
air-chilled product, Smart Chicken. None of the birds raised for Smart
Chicken are ever caged or debeaked. The birds raised for Organic Smart
Chicken are "free-range" and are allowed access to the outdoors, when
USDA temperature regulations allow it. None of the birds are given
animal by-products, antibiotics, hormones or growth promotants of any
kind. MBA Poultry is the only company in the United States that has
installed a Controlled Atmosphere Stunning system in which a mixture of
carbon dioxide and oxygen renders the birds into a sleep state prior to
the sacrifice. The growers of the birds are part owners of MBA Poultry,
so they are very attuned to the welfare of the birds. We also have live
production staff that visits each farm on a weekly basis to assure that
the strict growing standards of MBA Poultry are adhered to. Thanks
again for your e-mail, Martha. Have a great weekend, and remember,
"When you think chicken ... think Smart!"
Warm regards,
Mark A. Haskins
Founder/President/CEO
MBA Poultry (Home of Smart Chicken)
I'm hungry now, too
Right, ok, so, the reason I came upstairs at 115 or so was to get a utility knife...
ipod woes
Yes, I have a great, wonderful ipod. Only problem is, it malfunctioned about a month ago. You remember, there was a silly post about the geek squad guy...anyway, now that it is working, I discovered that my files on itunes are all screwed up and I am having to re-organize everything. We are talking about something like 12000 songs or something, which I loaded over the course of the last...4 or 5 years...so now on my ipod there is only one album - because I am reorganizing itunes keeps telling me it can't find my music...
Yes, this really is the biggest problem in my life right now. Somehow that is both sad and good...
Yes, this really is the biggest problem in my life right now. Somehow that is both sad and good...
Prolific
So, while trying to keep three blog sites posted currently, I realized that I can write quite a bit. Who cares that I haven't done anything else? Like, shower? I have been sitting here since...uh..about 1 oclock in my sweaty running clothes...is that wrong?
I am also planning a trip to Denver. It is working out so sweetly! The Curtis's are going out of town and I will house sit for them - which will pretty much cover my ticket! Yay. Bre will come out then come out alone and then Laura and then Eric. I know it sounds kind of complicated, but that is the kind of family we are...complicated.
Things are coming together nicely, I think. Gonna call and accept that job offer now...
Then I am taking a shower, I swear!
I am also planning a trip to Denver. It is working out so sweetly! The Curtis's are going out of town and I will house sit for them - which will pretty much cover my ticket! Yay. Bre will come out then come out alone and then Laura and then Eric. I know it sounds kind of complicated, but that is the kind of family we are...complicated.
Things are coming together nicely, I think. Gonna call and accept that job offer now...
Then I am taking a shower, I swear!
Sore...
So, yesterday I ran two miles and did a lower body work out. And I noticed that I was a little tight, but today I am feeling sore. I ran 4.6 outside today...outside is beautiful. I really don't know at what point I stopped enjoying running outside. A couple of years ago, I only ran outside. I was running in the freezing cold, the boiling hot...I almost never used my treadmill (and sometimes felt guilty, but not enough to actually use it....). This year, this past 8 months or so, though, I have run almost exclusively on the treadmill. I mean I ran at Bre's cuz a) there is no treadmill there and b) there are gorgeous lakes...but really, I think this is only my third time outside since...January? No, that can't be right. At any rate, I got out there and was glad I decided to go without the dog. She would have been suffering. It isn't hot, don't get me wrong, but it is hotter than she would like.
I am beat.
I also spent some more money today...I got some more things for making lotion stuff (the last batch was kind of a failure, but I am not going to quit!) and what else? Something...
Yesterday I ordered more books...cuz you always need more books...
That is it, though, Martha...you are a good steward of your money....
Today I am getting a gift for Mind Traveler...I was thinking as I sat down today (at the computer) and saw that there was a new posting, "how strange it is that I seem to be making friends with someone so far away, someone I never met." That is how it feels, anyway, I read the posts regularly, I feel like I kind of get a feel for her life...computers are strange things, no doubt.
I am beat.
I also spent some more money today...I got some more things for making lotion stuff (the last batch was kind of a failure, but I am not going to quit!) and what else? Something...
Yesterday I ordered more books...cuz you always need more books...
That is it, though, Martha...you are a good steward of your money....
Today I am getting a gift for Mind Traveler...I was thinking as I sat down today (at the computer) and saw that there was a new posting, "how strange it is that I seem to be making friends with someone so far away, someone I never met." That is how it feels, anyway, I read the posts regularly, I feel like I kind of get a feel for her life...computers are strange things, no doubt.
Monday and Tuesday
Beautiful Monday...Monday the first of May! I ran 2 miles and did an upper body workout. Bre ran tonight. Then we had a lovely supper...rissoto with butternut squash and I cooked a "Smart Chicken" http://www.smartchicken.com/index2.html on the grill. It was pretty good, if I do say so myself. I also cooked a spaghetti squash, an acorn squash and potatoes...
Tuesday ran 4 miles, went to Italian night - oh, got a call on an application I put in that I didn't even remember, but it sounded interesting (that was Monday) so I was all excited. Ingrid was there again but Giorgio wasn't. Which was nice cuz I didn't call him and I feel kind of bad about that. Bre ran again before we left. It was a good night...
We are only eating fruit again - but I cheated. My client was in such a good mood I couldn't let her eat alone. Made my stomach sick right away, though. Yucky food.
Tuesday ran 4 miles, went to Italian night - oh, got a call on an application I put in that I didn't even remember, but it sounded interesting (that was Monday) so I was all excited. Ingrid was there again but Giorgio wasn't. Which was nice cuz I didn't call him and I feel kind of bad about that. Bre ran again before we left. It was a good night...
We are only eating fruit again - but I cheated. My client was in such a good mood I couldn't let her eat alone. Made my stomach sick right away, though. Yucky food.
Friday finally
Ok, so then, what happened next? Thursday night I stayed over but was too wired! No more of that. Friday I had an interview...or was that Thursday? Must have been Thursday. Anyway, I forgot my stupid shoes! Sheesh. Had to wear tennies and prayed no one would care/notice.
The place was close to Bre's, seemed like one step up from a group home. I was interested but not sure if I was actually qualified. Called bre after leaving and he answered the scenerio question they gave me much better than I did!
I also bought tickets for Cirque du Solei Friday (must have been feeling rich).
Friday night...no idea anymore what happened...
Saturday I had practice...oh, wait ok, I remember. Eric and Bre came up Friday night, we went out to eat...Bre had a nap then when to my favorite restuarant, Kings and had great Korean food. We got home pretty late I think, watched some tv then to bed.
Saturday I went to practice, Bre and Eric stayed here. I went by Bre's after to get Laura but she wanted to stay home. So I came up, we cooked out (Boca brats....hmmmm) and then back to Bre's. Laura was still there but heading out. Ah, that is why we got home late...we must have shopped...I remember shopping with Eric and Bre, at my Cub's...but I can't remember, oh no, that was Saturday when I got back from choir.
Then (this is Saturday, now, keep up) we went to uptown, dropped off Laura and went looking for Eric's friends. We found them, playing the guitar (badly) and pretending to be homeless. I am telling you, that is just a shame!
Eric hung out with them for about 30 min while we went to a bookstore. Then we got fancy desserts and went home.
Sunday...Laura got home at 830 surprising everyone out of bed. I never did get back to sleep, kind of hard with Eric creeping around peeking at us and making noise in the living room. A door, a door, my kingdom for a door...
Laura cleaned up, Eric cleaned up (missed the Saturday cleaning thing) and then she went back out again (trying to finish a project). She looked beat before she even left!
I came home Sunday night, didn't I? Yes, I believe I did. I think I left before she came back. Oh, Eric and Bre and I did something because when they got back home, she was in bed...what did we do? Oh, yeah, pizza from Zebras and watched Brazil with Amy. Very strange, very strange movie. Right we were in one car Saturday so they had to give me a ride back.
The place was close to Bre's, seemed like one step up from a group home. I was interested but not sure if I was actually qualified. Called bre after leaving and he answered the scenerio question they gave me much better than I did!
I also bought tickets for Cirque du Solei Friday (must have been feeling rich).
Friday night...no idea anymore what happened...
Saturday I had practice...oh, wait ok, I remember. Eric and Bre came up Friday night, we went out to eat...Bre had a nap then when to my favorite restuarant, Kings and had great Korean food. We got home pretty late I think, watched some tv then to bed.
Saturday I went to practice, Bre and Eric stayed here. I went by Bre's after to get Laura but she wanted to stay home. So I came up, we cooked out (Boca brats....hmmmm) and then back to Bre's. Laura was still there but heading out. Ah, that is why we got home late...we must have shopped...I remember shopping with Eric and Bre, at my Cub's...but I can't remember, oh no, that was Saturday when I got back from choir.
Then (this is Saturday, now, keep up) we went to uptown, dropped off Laura and went looking for Eric's friends. We found them, playing the guitar (badly) and pretending to be homeless. I am telling you, that is just a shame!
Eric hung out with them for about 30 min while we went to a bookstore. Then we got fancy desserts and went home.
Sunday...Laura got home at 830 surprising everyone out of bed. I never did get back to sleep, kind of hard with Eric creeping around peeking at us and making noise in the living room. A door, a door, my kingdom for a door...
Laura cleaned up, Eric cleaned up (missed the Saturday cleaning thing) and then she went back out again (trying to finish a project). She looked beat before she even left!
I came home Sunday night, didn't I? Yes, I believe I did. I think I left before she came back. Oh, Eric and Bre and I did something because when they got back home, she was in bed...what did we do? Oh, yeah, pizza from Zebras and watched Brazil with Amy. Very strange, very strange movie. Right we were in one car Saturday so they had to give me a ride back.
Dude, I am still way behind
How did that happen? Ok, so Monday went shopping some. Also went to Sam's to get groceries and such...I think...No, that was the 22nd...Went with Bre that day...
Tuesday was Italian night...this is really getting ridiculous. Last Tuesday, which was...uh...th 26th, that is the night that I got the migrain lecture... I think I said that was the 19th but that is so wrong. Yes and on the 26th Ingrid was there again and we chatted about cake...(it must have been on the 19th that I met her, yes, that would be right because I asked Brenda if she knew her). She is very cool and speaks 17 langauges! and Signs 6. We chatted some in ASL at the end of the evening (duh, on the 19th).
So Wed the 27th there was choir practice...met early with the octet (sort of) that was singing at Judy Fjell's concert on the 28th. People seemed to be rolling there eyes as Carol led the group (could be my imagination, but if not). The way I see it, if you want to take over, do it. She was nice enough to lead the group when no one else wanted to. Stayed at Bre's.
Thursday night was the concert with Judy Fjell. Laura came with me...singing was terrifying but wonderful. Judy afterwards was fantastic. She is wonderful to listen to, speaking and singing and her songs really do touch you emotionally. Some are funny and some are sad and some make you want to jump up and change the world.
Tuesday was Italian night...this is really getting ridiculous. Last Tuesday, which was...uh...th 26th, that is the night that I got the migrain lecture... I think I said that was the 19th but that is so wrong. Yes and on the 26th Ingrid was there again and we chatted about cake...(it must have been on the 19th that I met her, yes, that would be right because I asked Brenda if she knew her). She is very cool and speaks 17 langauges! and Signs 6. We chatted some in ASL at the end of the evening (duh, on the 19th).
So Wed the 27th there was choir practice...met early with the octet (sort of) that was singing at Judy Fjell's concert on the 28th. People seemed to be rolling there eyes as Carol led the group (could be my imagination, but if not). The way I see it, if you want to take over, do it. She was nice enough to lead the group when no one else wanted to. Stayed at Bre's.
Thursday night was the concert with Judy Fjell. Laura came with me...singing was terrifying but wonderful. Judy afterwards was fantastic. She is wonderful to listen to, speaking and singing and her songs really do touch you emotionally. Some are funny and some are sad and some make you want to jump up and change the world.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Independent...yeah...
So, went on my interview, really liked the place and the folks...but not the hours. It would be 2 overnights and Thursday and Saturday nights if I want to be full time (plus another shift to be determined). Came home and found an email from Nystrom - they sound kind of interested...exciting...
Ran, ate (more cheating, ate my korean leftovers...they were gonna go bad, I had to!) and headed down. I dropped the dog off at Bre's then went to practice.
Practice was good, someone turned around (we were sitting in octets) and told me I sang that really well (we were singing the Penitant). mmmmm...warm glow.
Yes, this is me, independent of the good opinion of others....
Talked over the work thing with Bre...hmmmm also talked to Mommy today, after running, before leaving the house...
I decided I could take the two shifts, Thursday and Saturday and pick up others (like on-call) and kind of give the Nystrom thing a chance to work out...
Ran, ate (more cheating, ate my korean leftovers...they were gonna go bad, I had to!) and headed down. I dropped the dog off at Bre's then went to practice.
Practice was good, someone turned around (we were sitting in octets) and told me I sang that really well (we were singing the Penitant). mmmmm...warm glow.
Yes, this is me, independent of the good opinion of others....
Talked over the work thing with Bre...hmmmm also talked to Mommy today, after running, before leaving the house...
I decided I could take the two shifts, Thursday and Saturday and pick up others (like on-call) and kind of give the Nystrom thing a chance to work out...
Monday April 25
Kinda went crazy, shopped at Northtown...right, I went to pick up my iPod, I think. Anyway I got some new tongue rings, very cool. And earring backs.
Anyway
So, the thing really did go well. We brought the kids back Sunday night (to their mom's) and came back over here...I think we went out to eat - or shopping. The only thing to eat at the party was some strange "hot dish," rice pudding, ham-salad sandwiches and cake. Since I have become the world's pickiest eater, I didn't eat much. For lunch I had two peanut butter rice crispy bars, then I had a roll with strawberry jam.
At any rate, we went somewhere afterwards...
At any rate, we went somewhere afterwards...
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Sunday, April 24th
Sigh. Ok, so, Sunday we leapt out of bed and rushed to pick up Grandma's corsage (ah, yes, that reminds me that Friday after Bre came home we headed out to Fair's nursery for vermiculite) at Fair's nursery. It was lovely. Then to pick the kids up, then off to Buffalo (Minnesota).
The day went pretty well, all things considered. Mom liked the flower and the necklace Bre picked up at the Swedish Institute (she did not seem as excited about the candy dish...). Bruce (older brother) was nice and had hands like Daddy's, big and work worn. His wife was very pleasent to talk to. One of his sons was there too, but he didn't talk much. Roger was there with his wife and kids, they did Blessed Assurance for mom...woah. Those boys have pretty voices!
Lots of people showed up, which was lovely for Delphi. One talked about when they were in some factory working in 1945!
The kids did ok, Eric only came to me whining about 5 times, most of that after 2 pm, which I consider pretty good. Laura was like the pied piper, leading Eric, the two cousins (Roger's kids) and another cousin, second cousin (they live not far from my house...damn...I was supposed to email them) all around the room. Every time she stopped, they sort of congealed around her.
Hmmm. Bob went running and I think he came in about 10 minutes ago, but he hasn't come upstairs. I am going down to check if he is alive...
The day went pretty well, all things considered. Mom liked the flower and the necklace Bre picked up at the Swedish Institute (she did not seem as excited about the candy dish...). Bruce (older brother) was nice and had hands like Daddy's, big and work worn. His wife was very pleasent to talk to. One of his sons was there too, but he didn't talk much. Roger was there with his wife and kids, they did Blessed Assurance for mom...woah. Those boys have pretty voices!
Lots of people showed up, which was lovely for Delphi. One talked about when they were in some factory working in 1945!
The kids did ok, Eric only came to me whining about 5 times, most of that after 2 pm, which I consider pretty good. Laura was like the pied piper, leading Eric, the two cousins (Roger's kids) and another cousin, second cousin (they live not far from my house...damn...I was supposed to email them) all around the room. Every time she stopped, they sort of congealed around her.
Hmmm. Bob went running and I think he came in about 10 minutes ago, but he hasn't come upstairs. I am going down to check if he is alive...
Where was I?
So, did I get Friday in or not? Friday I had the interview, must have run after. Bre came home here...who knows what we did...Brenda let me know she was planning on coming Saturday, with Jane Rose - Oh, I know, I got DIRT on, uh, Wednesday. And I mailed out half.com books, too.
Saturday Bre went out and moved a ton (no joke, seriously a ton) of dirt into the new raised beds we made while I printed photos for brenda. She didn't bring Jane Rose after all (car seat issues) but it was fun anyway, chatting about things. I always wish we were more friends, we have many similar tastes in books and love to discuss things together...
At 145 she left, which was a good thing because I was slow getting it together trying to leave. We went and had massages in Chaska (farther away than Excelsior) and then stopped at Bre's before taking off for St. Paul. We ate dinner at Cafe Latte, eyeing desserts that we would eat later...
Off to the concert at O'Shaughnessy (yeah, I spelled it right, too). The first half was FABULOUS! Then the intermission....the second half was not as fabulous. Course we were both tired and maybe just a little overwhelmed with our day...
At any rate, we left there and stopped at Cafe Latte again and had GREAT desserts, I also had some kind of raspberry mocha something. mmmmmmmm
Saturday Bre went out and moved a ton (no joke, seriously a ton) of dirt into the new raised beds we made while I printed photos for brenda. She didn't bring Jane Rose after all (car seat issues) but it was fun anyway, chatting about things. I always wish we were more friends, we have many similar tastes in books and love to discuss things together...
At 145 she left, which was a good thing because I was slow getting it together trying to leave. We went and had massages in Chaska (farther away than Excelsior) and then stopped at Bre's before taking off for St. Paul. We ate dinner at Cafe Latte, eyeing desserts that we would eat later...
Off to the concert at O'Shaughnessy (yeah, I spelled it right, too). The first half was FABULOUS! Then the intermission....the second half was not as fabulous. Course we were both tired and maybe just a little overwhelmed with our day...
At any rate, we left there and stopped at Cafe Latte again and had GREAT desserts, I also had some kind of raspberry mocha something. mmmmmmmm
Thursday, uh, April 21
Oh, so Wed night I went to practice, then stayed at Bre's. I had told him I wasn't going to, but then it seemed to me like he thought I was, so then I decided to, and he was surprised, like, oh, I didn't know you were staying. communication. What a concept.
Wait wait, somewhere in there I had an interview. What day was that? Wednesday? Or Friday? Sheesh.
So, Thursday, must have drove back home, yes, because I left the dog at home, Amy was watching her. Thursday I did my thing and Bre and Eric came up, we must have cooked out, yeah. It was cool, specially marshmellows. They left right after I believe.
Friday...Friday must have been the appointment, right, because that was why I stayed here. It went ok (or so I thought at the time). I must have come home and ran after, I am sure I didn't before...OH, wait, got that wrong, Thursday night we went to the Panda Garden Buffet. Yes, because Eric needed new clothes for Grandma's party. Yes, that was fun. Shopping and hanging out, lots of laughter. That cook out thing, that happened the week before. heh heh. Getting old, Martha...
Wait wait, somewhere in there I had an interview. What day was that? Wednesday? Or Friday? Sheesh.
So, Thursday, must have drove back home, yes, because I left the dog at home, Amy was watching her. Thursday I did my thing and Bre and Eric came up, we must have cooked out, yeah. It was cool, specially marshmellows. They left right after I believe.
Friday...Friday must have been the appointment, right, because that was why I stayed here. It went ok (or so I thought at the time). I must have come home and ran after, I am sure I didn't before...OH, wait, got that wrong, Thursday night we went to the Panda Garden Buffet. Yes, because Eric needed new clothes for Grandma's party. Yes, that was fun. Shopping and hanging out, lots of laughter. That cook out thing, that happened the week before. heh heh. Getting old, Martha...
On to Wednesday
Yeah, this always takes time...you'd think I would have learned by now to just keep up in the first place. Ok, so on Wednesday George let me know there was a position opening up at Freeport - Case Worker /Family Care Specialist. Sounds interesting, but I wasn't too sure because I do not want to do what Bre did there, that was crazy making. Course, the thing is, I need a job so just shut up, right?
Ah, Wed I set up appointments for Bre and I to get a massage. Sort of a weekend plan thing. We thought the Get in Gear race was Saturday and Saturday night would be Sweet Honey in the Rock so it was going to be a day all for us. Turns out the Get in Gear is next week, but whatever. I tried to go to Excelsior Bay but Svea is no longer there...so I made appointments at The Royal Treatment in Chaska. I thought it was closer. Yeah, ok, so I have lived here for 4 years, I still don't know where everything is...
And I was calling around trying to get an appointment to get my hair cut, because Sunday is Bob's mom's 90th birthday...
Ah, Wed I set up appointments for Bre and I to get a massage. Sort of a weekend plan thing. We thought the Get in Gear race was Saturday and Saturday night would be Sweet Honey in the Rock so it was going to be a day all for us. Turns out the Get in Gear is next week, but whatever. I tried to go to Excelsior Bay but Svea is no longer there...so I made appointments at The Royal Treatment in Chaska. I thought it was closer. Yeah, ok, so I have lived here for 4 years, I still don't know where everything is...
And I was calling around trying to get an appointment to get my hair cut, because Sunday is Bob's mom's 90th birthday...
Back again
Ok, so where was I? So I was sitting next to Giorgio and it turns out he is a Reiki master. Which is pretty cool. And he lived in India and spent time in an ashram and all that. He offered to help me with the migraines. We talked some about my accident and such...he gave me his number but I didn't call...I feel like he might be good to talk to because no one else I have ever spoken to about the accident and all that ever believes like I do, that there are physical and metaphysical things at work. I mean, I have talked to doctors and of course they want to do surgery and medicate me and all that, and even my accupuncturist is sure he can cure me "in just 10 session" but no one is looking at this really wholistically. So I was thinking Giorgio is good that way, right? But somehow I don't feel good about it anyway. So....yeah, that was more than Tuesday...
I think Monday night Bob and I did some mirroring...that was fabulous, no no, that was Tuesday, because we were talking about his level of comfort when we go and stuff. It was very good.
Monday night we went out to eat - Perkins fish fry. Yeah, we just kind of dove in...it was good, seriously. After reading Fast Food Nation, dude, it is hard to eat out. But I know that it isn't too hard for Bre and Co and also I feel that...ok, so there was a study I read about with breakfast foods...They had the aura camera hooked up (yes, I am serious, taking pictures of auras) and they had people go in this room and eat either fresh fruit or Micky D's breakfast. And the first pictures showed that the fresh fruit had great, bright auras and the people's auras perked up as they ate. And the MD food had a dark, grey aura, very low and so did the people as they ate. NOW the interesting part. Then they had the people go in and before they ate, whatever they were eating, they had them pray or meditate or simply concentrate on the food, recognizing the nourishment that would come from it, that kind of thing. Yeah, you guessed it. All the food glowed a beautiful, bright glow and so did the people, Micky D's or not.
So. I am still picky about what I eat (as ever) and there are some things I am just not going to touch, but I try to keep in mind that what I eat varies with the way I am looking at it and try not to be down on myself because we ate out...
Today and tomorrow (speaking of food) we are just eating fruit again (like last month - only we did it three days last month - this time only two because it is too strange when the kids are around...actually, it won't be for me, I won't eat with the kids because this is concert week - practice on Wed night, dress rehearsal on Thurs, concert both Fri and Sat - I am going to go ahead and do this till Thursday!).
sooooo...where was I going with all this?!
I think Monday night Bob and I did some mirroring...that was fabulous, no no, that was Tuesday, because we were talking about his level of comfort when we go and stuff. It was very good.
Monday night we went out to eat - Perkins fish fry. Yeah, we just kind of dove in...it was good, seriously. After reading Fast Food Nation, dude, it is hard to eat out. But I know that it isn't too hard for Bre and Co and also I feel that...ok, so there was a study I read about with breakfast foods...They had the aura camera hooked up (yes, I am serious, taking pictures of auras) and they had people go in this room and eat either fresh fruit or Micky D's breakfast. And the first pictures showed that the fresh fruit had great, bright auras and the people's auras perked up as they ate. And the MD food had a dark, grey aura, very low and so did the people as they ate. NOW the interesting part. Then they had the people go in and before they ate, whatever they were eating, they had them pray or meditate or simply concentrate on the food, recognizing the nourishment that would come from it, that kind of thing. Yeah, you guessed it. All the food glowed a beautiful, bright glow and so did the people, Micky D's or not.
So. I am still picky about what I eat (as ever) and there are some things I am just not going to touch, but I try to keep in mind that what I eat varies with the way I am looking at it and try not to be down on myself because we ate out...
Today and tomorrow (speaking of food) we are just eating fruit again (like last month - only we did it three days last month - this time only two because it is too strange when the kids are around...actually, it won't be for me, I won't eat with the kids because this is concert week - practice on Wed night, dress rehearsal on Thurs, concert both Fri and Sat - I am going to go ahead and do this till Thursday!).
sooooo...where was I going with all this?!
Keeping up
As often happens when I journal, when I stop for a while, I always feel the obsessive need to "catch up." I hate the feeling that I "MUST" do this, but I also know that I like to go back over what I have done, written, felt...
So, here is my attempt. I last posted on April 18th, that was a Monday...I have no idea what happened after the run.
April 19th, Tuesday. Hmmm. Yeah, dunno what happened that day either...ran, saw my client, went to Italian night - oh, that was interesting. No wait, more about Monday...
Monday there was a sectional, so I went down...somehow I remember hurrying...why is that? Don't remember. Sang in the sectional which was cool, it ran till 830 which surprised me. Bre meanwhile went running and was very sweetly trying to get home "on time" (cuz I thought I would be there at 830...yeah, he was home before me, by a couple of minutes, anyway. Ok...
On to Tuesday! Right, Tuesday went to Italian night, that was interesting. Bre told Giorgio that I had migraines (only I think they understood I had a migraine right then) and I was told to sit next to Giorgio. He is always so...hmmm...he likes to hold court. At any rate...blaaaa...is it really 2?! I gotta go!!!
So, here is my attempt. I last posted on April 18th, that was a Monday...I have no idea what happened after the run.
April 19th, Tuesday. Hmmm. Yeah, dunno what happened that day either...ran, saw my client, went to Italian night - oh, that was interesting. No wait, more about Monday...
Monday there was a sectional, so I went down...somehow I remember hurrying...why is that? Don't remember. Sang in the sectional which was cool, it ran till 830 which surprised me. Bre meanwhile went running and was very sweetly trying to get home "on time" (cuz I thought I would be there at 830...yeah, he was home before me, by a couple of minutes, anyway. Ok...
On to Tuesday! Right, Tuesday went to Italian night, that was interesting. Bre told Giorgio that I had migraines (only I think they understood I had a migraine right then) and I was told to sit next to Giorgio. He is always so...hmmm...he likes to hold court. At any rate...blaaaa...is it really 2?! I gotta go!!!
From Science of Mind Magazine
Every sunrise is a message from God and every sunset His signature.
—W.A. Ward
I behold the Beautiful and the Pleasant. I know that beauty has entered my life and will always remain there.
—The Science of Mind, page 520
Reposition Your Disposition
From the picture window in my living room I could see a golden butterfly parked gracefully on a rosebush, a squirrel gathering nuts, birds feasting on bread crumbs, and a stray cat napping lazily on the lawn. This view was accompanied by the high-pitched laughter of toddlers from my neighbor’s daycare center; their laughter inspired me to write the following:
The sun awakens at the rise of dawn, positioning itself to spread gentle and loving caresses upon the world’s circumference. Its radiant, golden glow generously warms bodies and hearts with its beams of warm rays.
Though at times obscured by shadows of ominous clouds and rain surfacing it always returns to its innate nature to resume its former function to shine after the storm has passed from the horizon.
When life’s circumstances cast unexpected dark shadows in your life, and raindrops keep falling on your head, it’s important to reposition your disposition and keep on singin’ in the rain. The sun will come out tomorrow!
Life is.. .faith. I release any cloudy thoughts and concerns. I view the world from a positive, purposeful, powerful perspective. I maintain an attitude of gratitude and display a sunny disposition.
—W.A. Ward
I behold the Beautiful and the Pleasant. I know that beauty has entered my life and will always remain there.
—The Science of Mind, page 520
Reposition Your Disposition
From the picture window in my living room I could see a golden butterfly parked gracefully on a rosebush, a squirrel gathering nuts, birds feasting on bread crumbs, and a stray cat napping lazily on the lawn. This view was accompanied by the high-pitched laughter of toddlers from my neighbor’s daycare center; their laughter inspired me to write the following:
The sun awakens at the rise of dawn, positioning itself to spread gentle and loving caresses upon the world’s circumference. Its radiant, golden glow generously warms bodies and hearts with its beams of warm rays.
Though at times obscured by shadows of ominous clouds and rain surfacing it always returns to its innate nature to resume its former function to shine after the storm has passed from the horizon.
When life’s circumstances cast unexpected dark shadows in your life, and raindrops keep falling on your head, it’s important to reposition your disposition and keep on singin’ in the rain. The sun will come out tomorrow!
Life is.. .faith. I release any cloudy thoughts and concerns. I view the world from a positive, purposeful, powerful perspective. I maintain an attitude of gratitude and display a sunny disposition.
Running earlier
Was supposed to help me get more done in my day, but it is already noon and I haven't done much else besides run...
Tuesday
Well, I just named a star for my mommy - a mother's day gift - as it were. I know they already have tons of stuff in the house and who needs more stuff, really? I also named one for me...and grace...and daddy...well, I couldn't just name me and mommy, it seemed wrong!
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