Denver

Bre always says that for me, sleep is optional. That is not exactly true, although I have tended to only need 5 or 6 hours a night in the past. I have been trying to get more sleep as an effort towards more health lately, and I really noticed when I cut down my hours this last 10 days. Also, he knows that when he is not over, I go to bed really late, 4 or 5 am. Part of that, as I explained to him, is that I get to do exactly what I want in those hours, with no distractions (usually reading). Part of it too, though, is that I hate to get into that bed without him. It seems kind of pointless, as there is no one to cuddle with...

So, talked all night with Kayeleigh, then got up late and talked all afternoon. We only had to be at the curtis's by 5 or 6...couldn't even make that appt! We went to eat at a wonderful Mexican place then drove around. She showed me how to get to the house where I will be house sitting and hence back to her place (she lives in a part of denver I am pretty sure I never spent any time in). We also went to see the new art museum which is, guess what? Yeah, a giant upside down triangle hanging over a street. We have a new building like that in Minneapolis too, I think.

Then we came home and talked some more. We talked about Giovanni and it was very interesting to compare stories...Giovanni was fooling around on her too...probably with the same girl he was fooling around on me with!

Anyway, things are going very well. I also did some work (after she went to bed) so that I can mail in my billing while I am here.

Haven't actually read much...guess will have to start that tmw. Also didn't run today, but i plan on doing so tmw from the Curtis's. My old roads there...I am interested to see how that feels.

Can't believe it is thursday already! Been smoking...hope to cut back before Bre arrives...smile. Also been drinking some raspberry tea. I don't know if it is the same as the one I liked at Cucumbers, but I like it, anyway. She has been cutting back on coffee so she switched to tea.

I think this weekend is going to be fabulous! We can do the art museum thing, Monday we are going to a barbeque with some friends of hers and maybe going down to the springs where her cousin is having a party. Lots of drinking will be going on there, but might go down just to see them. Kayeleigh quit drinking in Italy. She went to "alkie" classes there (her words) and she said it was wonderful and supportive. She realized that she wasn't doing herself any good. I want to ask more about it, especially after all the conversations we have had at work (PI) about AA and such but I haven't yet.

It was great speaking in Italian, too. Nice for both of us to remember. She claims she is not fluent but speaks well. Her place is much like I remember her spaces to be, cluttered and a little chaotic. She has tons of things in boxes...she has been gone much of the summer and then has to move at the end of...uh...july i think. She is going to be teaching undergrad archeology in the fall, kind of nervous about it, but not overly so. She is so smart, but doesn't give herself enough credit...yet. I am kind of embarrased...feel like I do not know nearly as much about psych as she does about archeology. I guess I need to do some more reading on my own about such things...I really only did the minimum in classes except for the practical application ones...and maybe there too...

Currently listening: Awedony By Amr Diab Release date: By 13 February, 2001

here I am, on the road again

No, that isn't exactly right, I'm not on the road at all, I am actually at work. Feeling more tired tonight than either of the other nights I did this...could that be a cumulative effect? Huh.

Getting ready for my trip to denvah...although there is a part of me that wants to stay, nowadays, stay and get a little more settled in my new job. But it can wait, I know it can. Right? Not like it is going to go away...

Yah, it is going on 4 am...that is great.

Hey, was just listening to Song of Susannah in the car...that is a great story. Seriously. So what if I read it recently? Was great hearing it again anyway.

Currently listening: Trick Pony By Trick Pony Release date: By 13 March,

Calling people

at 4 a.m. to leave a message isn't crazy...is it? I mean, I know she isn't at work...after I hung up I thought, there will be a time stamp on that message you know, martha. And she is going to think you are nuts! Oh well, too late now.

Having a hard time reading, which I find strange. Ok, the truth is I haven't actually tried, but I haven't wanted to at all, either.

I filled out the Walden application and started the U of M one. yay me. I decided it isn't worth freaking out about. Either I will be admitted or not. I can only do the paperwork and hope for the best.

Feeling sleepy now...maybe I am crazy to have offered to do Saturday and Sunday's overnights, too...maybe I should re-think that...hmmmmm...

yeah, anyway. Not doing much clear thinking right now!

working another night shift

This is really working out well for my blog life, anyway. So, slept some today, got about 4.5 hours in, then I just had to get up. I kept thinking about what I needed to do later in the day...and wouldn't you know it, my first appt of the day cancelled, could have gotten at least one more hour...

But, I did get my work out in this evening and I feel very good about that. It is much nicer having a routine - I really do feel better when my life is more organized...at least some parts.

Saw some clients today that made me realize, yet again, how good my life is.

Working on my Walden application tonight, that is probably half of the reason I am here, posting. Cuz then I am not there, writing my (dun dun duuuun) LETTER OF INTENT. My intention is....my intention is to go to school forever. Can't I just say that to someone?

Currently reading: Song of Susannah (The Dark Tower, Book 6) By Stephen King

Emerson Quote

To laugh often and love much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children. To earn the apreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty and to find the best in others, To give of one's self and to leave the world a little better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition, to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation, to know that even one life has breathed easier, This is to have succeeded...

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Currently reading: Creating True Prosperity By Shakti Gawain

Wondering where I am at 2:12?

Working. Yes, working. I figured I needed to pick up a few shifts before taking this trek to Denver so I would have some cashola in my pocket when I got back. Nothing like going on vacation and coming back broke! I am doing tonight and tomorrow night...and maybe Saturday and Sunday overnights too. We'll see how this set goes, first.

Work is going good, this job is cool, either very slow or very chaotic. The other non-therapy therapy job, in home therapy, that is very good. I think I won't have any difficulty at all with getting hours and such. I like all my clients so far, and hope I can be helpful. I have 13 cases already - even though I am still called part-time. I hope to get right up to full time when I get back from Denver.

Then I want to drop my Thursday evening and Saturday evening here. I know that may be a bummer for here, but I need Thursdays to do in-home and Saturdays....well, i need them for me!

Maybe I will just drop Thursdays...Which reminds me, I was planning on doing myself a little budget tonight, figure out where I am....

Currently reading: Stolen Lives : Twenty Years in a Desert Jail By Malika Oufkir

Body dismorphia

So, yeah, you know how it is about getting fit - trying to reach some goals, we all know that stuff, right? So I am running the Twin Cities marathon in October, and I really want to run respectably. I do not want to finish in 6 hours, I want to run the course. I was doing very well marathon training two years ago, but then the hip/foot trouble started and then I sort of accidentally re-started smoking and that kind of changed my stamina strategy. NO no, don't laugh. I kept running. I didn't stop, even when my smoking increased to half a pack a day. Seriously. But my stamina went down so fast, it was not pretty.

So, anyway, I quit again...when? I can't remember. Before we went to italy, so before November. I think before I got canned, too, so maybe August of last year. But my stamina still sucks! (So far. gotta remember to talk nice to myself) I am still working on it. I haven't given up hope.

Bre ran in Grandma's marathon last weekend, and he did great. 54 seconds too slow to qualify for Boston, but still great. He is quite a guy....

How hard is it to be happy with the body you've got? I mean, even while striving to be healthier, fitter, whatever-er, I know that it is best for me to love myself the way I am, but dang. Some days that is too hard. Seems too hard.

Currently reading: Conquistador: A Novel of Alternate History By S. M. Stirling

more more more, how do you like it?

So, another thing about this trip to Denver...I will be seeing my bestest, oldest (ok, she isn't old...you know what I mean), bestest friend in the whole world. We haven't seen each other in a while, so it is a little strange...I mean, we had a period in which we didn't communicate at all, and so there will be kind of some stuff...I am not really sure at all how this will be, but I am anticipating long nights of talk...which I so miss!

We have been talking on the phone for a few months and dang. She is so my best friend. Even if we do have some crazy history to get over. It's worth it.

been a long time since I rock 'n' rolled....

Current mood: Wooo hoooo!

Yeah, been a long time since I was here, but that is good news, mostly. I am working two part-time jobs, which is great, considering my unemployment ran out....

I am doing therapy at both jobs, although neither place calls what I do therapy (because I am not licensensed). On the one hand, that seems wrong to me, on the other, I'm cool with that, for now.

I am applying for graduate school (yes, again) - both at Walden (some kind of semi-shady on-line deal) and at the glorious and grand U of MN. Although the U of M is more glorious, I can't actually start until Sept 2006...so far away...but at Walden i could start this Sept (which kind of adds to their semi-shadiness "wouldn't want to be a member of any club that would let me join" or something like that.

Relationship stuff is going well - wedding plans are in the making (although lately I have been thinking more about the honeymoon - I want to go somewhere cool and new that we can discover together...but I would love to go to italy and see my ka-tet over there, too....)

Kids are doing well, school is out and the vacation is on! We are all going to Denver next week...this is so crazy and yet seems perfectly reasonable to me. This will be our first "family" vacation, and we are so doing it NOT together. Let me try to explain. I leave on the 28th, then Bre comes out on the 1st. He comes back to MN on the 4th or 5th. Laura comes out on the 6th. Bre and Eric come out on the 9th and we all come back to MN on the 10th. yay for family vacations....

Currently reading: The Giver By Lois Lowry